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Day Three: pandemic wedding plans and cake hangovers

I did my work out at night for the last two nights, and gave myself the chance to enjoy not being hungover along with my coffee and my garden in the cool mornings. I think that is a good strategy for avoiding the beer-o-clock temptations - at least in summer. Not drinking has felt easy for the past few days, but  I'm also still just starting to feel completely refreshed compared to my terrible hangover Wednesday. I don't talk about much, but I'm getting married soon. I say soon, like in the next week or two but I don't have an actual date. I don't even know what state I'll be in. To the extent that I ever imagined getting married, I imagined something low key. My parents clearly (and understandably!) want to make plans to celebrate, even in a limited way. I'm not a part of as many conversations with my partner's parents, but I can only assume they feel the same way. Our families live far apart and I don't feel comfortable asking either party to trave...

The Sugar Crutch

I was just reading a blog post about going sugar free for a month, and it seems like sugar is a common substitute for booze. I've always had a sweet tooth, and as a human female I've always had some body issues imposed on me by the world. In high school, especially my disordered eating was severe. I would do the counting calories and skipping meals thing often aiming for less than 1000 calories a day, and then I would get so hungry and eat a whole movie theater candy box. I know intellectually that any minute I spend hating my body is a minute I've wasted, a minute I'll never get back. Life is too precious for that. I am an athlete, my hunger is real and I should honor it. At the same time, I can remember the times I was a bit thinner, and feeling good about my body made me feel invincible. That bliss is only a few pounds away...  Alcohol is something I've used as a coping mechanism for many things. Realistically, I know that when I crave a beer, I'm also crav...